Saturday, April 17, 2010
Have you ever imagined what if we were born differently, not in this age or generation, born not to be what we are now? One that is vastly different from the present life that we are leading?
What if our fate has already been decided. Our destiny has already been written down. From the most minute detail of which family we were born into, to what we went thru in our childhood, to who we are to become when we grow up. Some are born with a silver spoon while others are born with sufferings or infirmities. Some eventually are led astray while others grow up to be civilised mankind.
That is to say God's plan for us has already been planned out long ago, and no matter what we do, we are just sitting on it waiting for it to unfold. We are just flipping the pages in the chapter as we live each day, meeting whatever happenings that is coming our way. Happenings that are bound to happen; inevitable. Which is probably to say from the way we meet those challenges and situations to the way we are changed by circumstances, it has already been planned out for. Meaning if u want to change something, you will probably be changing it if you are destined to. There wouldn't be an alternate path way down the future about 'what if i haven't change that/ done that'. Other wise,there would be a parallel universe existing.
I know all this sounds complicated. In a nut shell, What IF, whatever that is bound to happen to you,good or bad, how much you're gonna change, how your life will turn out has already been mapped out for you and the master plan isn't going to change no matter what you do? (sounds scary eh?)
But that doesn't mean you stop hoping and you stop trying to make a difference. Because all these factors eventually lead you to where you will be. All your hopes and efforts are factored into the master plan and because you ARE doing what you ARE doing, your future will eventually be..... like this, like how its supposed to play out.
People say things happen for a reason and that there is a purpose behind everything. If you are not one that believe in purpose and meaning, then how about something more technical? Best simply putted, causes and effect. Because A happened, it offsets the effect of B, thus leading to C, D, E. and you could be in any stage of this event chain. Maybe you just happened to be there and you saw something that you shouldn't, or one moment you are travelling and next moment you got into an accident? (seeing more and more bike related accident in the recent month)
Its funny why i will think of this. Because today if I were just a road sweeper, or a toilet cleaner, will i even be thinking about this?
I must be watching flashforward too much but i find it very true. Because i've seen prophecy come to past and i'm waiting for mine..
~ once again you've read from cui ka liao blogspot . com
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10:41 PM
I'm really really getting used to a mundane life. Ok let me recount for you, its like waking up, going to camp or going to gym then going home, going to slpt. and wake up.. and continue again..
Oh plz save me!! Like can let me ORD now and start uni? plz? now? zzzzzzzzz
I jus had 2 recent interview, one for SMU info com., the other, aplitude test for industrial design in NUS. Think i did rather well for SMU interview, i guess i was one of the more 'different' kind. Not jus dress code wise (cause i dressed the most casual, berms and slippers) but maybe in terms of my confident and personality, i was more relaxed and more outspoken. I hope i didn't mistaken the meaning behind the interviewer's expression. He gave me a (if i'm nt wrong) a 'rather impressive' look for the estimation question whereby we had to estimate the electricity bill of a typical month in SMU. Anyway my amount is probably quite closed ba, abt 100 over k. Considering to run a single hotel building 24/7, the utility bill is abt 20 over k. SMU have abt 6 buildings so 100 over k is rather reasonable. Ofcause that wasn't my working la, my working was based on population size, no. of hrs spent and bla bla bla.
NUS aptitude test was today, firstly i woke up late. 9AM! WTF, iphone didn't ring!? test is at 930AM! Wa i rushed down, the exam was so vast, 700 over people. I was looking for my desk when they said 'ok you may start now'. Anyway the setting was like exam based like im taking national exams, lol desk and chairs in the hall, arranged in rows and columns. Wa must be like 1 year+ since i last took an exam, the feeling was rather refreshing. Anyway we had to make a model using 4 A4 card. I made a.. sculpture to represent 'ornate'. At the end of the exam i look ard, omg, got people make room interior with floors, staircase, window.. then afew of them made city landscape with squarish blocks and bridge/highway/trainstation (represented by a strip of paper), saw some playground and a dome shape open arena even. How is it possible to make so much with just 4 piece of A4 paper!? I know if Ced was there, he will make a tank since he gt experience. LoL. Then it will be deem irrelevant.
Forgot to mention that uni really has lots of girls. Tsk tsk just the aptitude test alone already so many girls caught my eyes. I just didn't bother to take a closer look cuz too many of them liao. haha. Either way i really hope i get into SMU. Its like my ideal university, the only one that i really want to go. After watching their campus tour website, im even more tempted. Or perhaps, more hopefully.. tempted is the wrong word.
ok so tts why.. boring life now, uni plz start soon!Labels: recount
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10:09 PM
Thursday, April 1, 2010
bleed by hot chelle raeI miss you and the times we had..
But no matter how badly i do, we are just a figment of our memories now.Labels: reflection
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4:07 PM
sometimes i sit alone at my door steps and look up at the night sky
i ask myself, if my life isn't about 'her', what else is it about?
i don't know why im so fascinated about my soul mate
being a close friend, a bf, a husband, to be her support, her pillar, her world, her life just seems like everything that i ever wanna set out to do ever since.. i can't remember when
i remembered when i was young i always tell people that i don't wanna get married and i'm gonna be a monk becuz deep down i'm just too shy to admit that i like this gal or that gal and i wanna marry her..
my first was supposedly a guaranteed success.. or at least i tot so.. i really had unbeatable confident and esteem. well it failed anyway. and it was already forecasted before hand, the second is supposedly my truely. How true is that? I'm living my life on predictions.. but it has come true so far probably because our future has already been written down. We are just sitting thru and waiting for it to unfold.
when he said 'im gonna settle down with a family while still pretty young' at the moment, i understood instantly. Its like the prickling torn in my flesh through the ages has jus been confirmed.
and now im still waiting for the second 'her' to show up
(what is this? like the show, flashforward....)
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1:31 PM
