* a far-off memory tt's like a S H A T T E R E D dream, a S H A T T E R E D dream tt's like a far-off memory ]
Thursday, April 1, 2010
sometimes i sit alone at my door steps and look up at the night sky
i ask myself, if my life isn't about 'her', what else is it about?
i don't know why im so fascinated about my soul mate
being a close friend, a bf, a husband, to be her support, her pillar, her world, her life just seems like everything that i ever wanna set out to do ever since.. i can't remember when
i remembered when i was young i always tell people that i don't wanna get married and i'm gonna be a monk becuz deep down i'm just too shy to admit that i like this gal or that gal and i wanna marry her..
my first was supposedly a guaranteed success.. or at least i tot so.. i really had unbeatable confident and esteem. well it failed anyway. and it was already forecasted before hand, the second is supposedly my truely. How true is that? I'm living my life on predictions.. but it has come true so far probably because our future has already been written down. We are just sitting thru and waiting for it to unfold.
when he said 'im gonna settle down with a family while still pretty young' at the moment, i understood instantly. Its like the prickling torn in my flesh through the ages has jus been confirmed.
and now im still waiting for the second 'her' to show up
(what is this? like the show, flashforward....)
Labels: reflection
* Cui diao dreams @_
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